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- 28 Mar
This week I posed nude (GASP!). How I went from Anxious to awesome
This week I hired a professional videographer to film content for my new website, new promotions and programs I’m creating, and a complete rebranding of me.
I call it the real me.
It was fun. exhilarating. and incredibly scary.
I’ve experienced plenty of debilitating anxiety in my life.
This was different. This was creative anxiety. This anxiety moved me.
This time, I transformed my anxiety into awesomeness and I rocked my shoot.
TRUTH: This week I was shot on camera N-U-D-E.
Metaphorically, not literally. My truth spoken. My raw self exposed & revealed for the world to see. (My deepest apologies if you were misled by my subject line, by the way).
I had a major Aha: Why am I so anxious?
Speaking on-camera is important to me. really. really important. This is revealing a very deep piece of my existence. Speaking MY Truth- exposing my true self and Being ME- no matter what.
The truth is I am. THIS makes me happy. It is the perfect mix of scary & fun, anxiety-provoking and play. I realized in doing this shoot, and even writing all 4330 words of copy, how much I am at home with this. I am publicly claiming my intention of bringing more on-camera work into my life- my career. I am not sure what it looks like yet. But I am allowing myself to be vulnerable here and claim this as my truth. I am on the road to manifesting these opportunities.
I realized this video shoot was a ‘do or die’ situation. really. actually. If I stay hiding [my true self] inside, I am dying inside. I knew I was ready to step it up and just be myself- beauty, brains, goof, and all. I knew what that required of me. Letting go of the fear of looking stupid and the need to please. My lifelong fixation on being perfect & pleasing everyone was over!
To come to this point is really really good. But to let go of what has been a large part of me for most of my life is also really really painful.
I do hope you’ll stick with me as I enter this new phase of my life & work and reveal a deeper part of who I am.
Stay tuned.
I have lots of free goodies, insight, love, and laughs coming your way. You can count on that!
{ My new reframe of Anxiety: Nervousness that creates excitement• necessary component to performance }
“It takes courage for a man
to listen to his own goodness and act on it.
Do we dare to be ourselves?
That is that question that counts.”
-Pablo Casals
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Laura Madden
