• February 25, 2021
• Laura Madden
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Well Hello 2015!

I know I’m a bit late to the ‘let’s get renewed, resolved and out there’ New Year’s hurrah, but better late than never right?

I’ll admit I’ve been feeling heavy resistance to jumping back into the swing of things.

This year got off to a rather jarring start. Last month I had to say good bye to my beloved Sexy Beast Bailey- truly the love of my life (next to my hunky husband).

It has been a long road with him and the past 7+ months have been challenging and terrifying as I watched him steadily decline. You might think you are emotionally & spiritually prepared for such a change- when you know it is coming- but nope, I wasn’t, not even close.

As a matter of fact, I way underestimated the physical tole this was taking on my body.

Surrender to what is- whether you like it or not

It wasn’t until after the fact that I really stopped to breath. And to feel.  I quickly realized how exhausted and sleep deprived I actually had been, even though I was being treated for adrenal fatigue for many months (a form of exhaustion)- still I found it hard to stop & surrender to what my body & soul was asking for.

You finally learn the TRUTH when you stop

So here I am- adrenals completely exhausted, feeling drained, chronic fatigue in full swing, insomnia, inflammatory eye condition, etc. etc…

…feeling uninspired, empty and fully accepting that SURRENDER is the answer- the only answer…

My theme of the year: SURRENDER

To what? What is. What I am being called to do. Where I am being called to go. What to say, who to say it to, and how to say it– how to fully express myself.

EXPRESS YOURSELF…or else

You may be like me too. When you ignore your inner guidance, your body rebels on you. It will lie down kicking & screaming until you have no choice but to take a pause.

Stop + listen. 

…realizing some serious recalibration is of the utmost importance.

…I’ve been taking far better care of my ailing pup & others in my life than myself.

….landing me in “must rest zone”

Drs. orders.

When you fail to fully express yourself, you die. Not to sound SO GRIM, but metaphysically a piece of you does die. And if you are super sensitive like me, physically you start to feel like you are as well.

I’ve spent the past few months soul searching, resting, and obeying Drs. orders.  I’ve also been moonlighting at Banana Republic- one of my favorite fun fashion stores. Yes, I needed to find some way to be working & making some money while taking this pause, but also to be expressing myself- to be utilized.

The more I am there, the more the truth is revealed to me. You can only ignore it for so long.

When you follow your insticncts- which is hardly ever practical or reasonable- the truth is revealed.

The body doesn’t lie- listen to how your body responds to everything you do.  And to how your inner voice sends you clues everywhere you turn.  A sense of freedom and fear at the same time is actually just the roadmap I’ve been searching for.

Spending time playing stylist has sealed the deal on what I suspected & suppressed for far too long.  That is an example of my zone of genius- where I need to spend my days- where I need to work & where I can also play.

Why, when we know the answers, do we still choose to resist them?

So here I am today, completely devoted to Style- my passion and my truth- for that is the arena in which I am meant to play. To play with clothes, styling, playing dress up with clients- even if sometimes it is just with a mannequin (they don’t ever talk back- yay!), it where I must devote my time- at least for the time being.

It is my passion to empower others through style- in a completely hands-on, in person, creative way.  So you will be seeing more offerings from me in the future doing just that!

And here, I’ll be curating beautiful imagery, sharing my outfit ideas and inspiration, my art, personal style, and reporting on all things creative that inspire me. It might be style & fashion, but it also may run the whole range of living an empowered lifestyle- food, friends, art, entertaining, volunteering, travel, and yes lots of shopping- just because, that’s my thing and it is what I love.

As we fully dive into 2015 (my bad- I know it is almost March), it is my hope and dream that my blog- my style, my writing, art, videos & photos- will leave you inspired & empowered, because that is truly my dharma in life- that is what I am here to do- simply to serve.

Cheers!

And Happy New Year!

It is always better to show up late to the party than to never arrive at all. Agree?

Xo

L

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Laura Madden